The future panic

You know the feeling, when you’re at your 20’s and you should now what to do with your life. Your parents are constantly asking questions about applications to unis and your future plans. What’s the rush?  If you know want to do, the next question you ask: how do I get there?  What’s the road i'm supposed to take? This is the time to start doing something to make dreams come true. What the hell am I supposed to do? Panic.

The majority of people at 20’s don’t know what to do in life? Many guys who get out from army and they have no idea what to do next, for example.  For the first time they actually think that now I should know what to do next. Previously there was no need to such thoughts cause they knew they’re gonna be in army from six months to one year. No worries, right? Well that one year went pretty fast. Panic. 

There’s no rush. Even if it feels like it but forget it. Just focus on you. Give time for yourself and figure out what could be the road you want to take. You’ll find it.

There’s no panic for me. I have applied to uni and now I’m studying for the entrance exam, like thousands of other people. The exam consists of different kind of parts. There might be essays or multiple choice questions but they all are associated with your major. For example,  my major being English, mainly I have to study linguistics, history of English language, grammar, and literature.

While you’re reading, do you feel like you should know everything about your major before you actually get in? I do. I thought we want to go university to learn about our major but actually we should learn a lot by ourselves before.I feel like I should be a master in my major already. I think it’s wrong. It feels like our future depends on that goddamn exam. I’ve found out what I want to do with my life, but that exam seems to be the stumbling block for me to actually do it. My limitation with the language is here again. My English is not perfect, but will it be enough me to get in? If I mess it up, what am I supposed to do then? Do you think I’ll have any motivation to try next year again? Don’t think so. Some people have tried many times and still haven’t got in. Stop panicking. There's other ways. Keep your options open.

I’m sure there’s many other people who feel the same way as I do. The thing is though, if you just try your best. Study hard. Try to learn as much as you can by yourself. Take the preparing course for the exam if possible. Then go to that bloody exam, do your best and just believe that it was enough. You will get in, if it’s meant to be. Your life won’t be over if you don’t get in. Then you just have to find think other options. There is plenty.

So people who don’t have a single clue what to do with their future or those who do know but it feels  hard to get there. 

Just believe in you. 

Give time for yourself if you need it. (Even if your parents are breathing down on your neck about your future.)

Don’t panic.

This is your life.

Your decisions. 

Your time. 

There's no rush.
Just listen to your heart.

And do your best. 

It’s enough

- lovesme