The sisters I never had

The other night I realized how lucky I am to have my two fabulous girlfriends. They believe in me and my future. They always courage me. They always stand for me. Love me unconditionally, just the way I am: When I’ve been the usual over-enthusiastic me, talking how my life is fabulous and I haven’t seen over my enthusiasm that my friend is feeling like shit. Or when I’ve been stupid and gone with my boyfriend even my friend needed me most. When I hit the bottom and wasn’t myself anymore. No matter, they've always been there and they will be. I don't believe nothing could change that.

They’re like sisters to me. The sisters I never had. I almost lost one of them three years ago because of my mistake. Sara forgave me though, and sticked around. We’ve become closer and closer ever since. Our friendship has gone through the-horrible-teenage-drama, heartbreaks, oh the list is long. Last year I moved to another country for 4 months, that was a huge change. I was afraid what not seeing each other for months would do to us but it only pulled us even tighter together – I didn’t know it could be possible. Some friendships wouldn't manage go through all that. Ours did. Now we are unseparable. We might spend many days together and still there's always a question when the other is leaving: "Do you have to go already?" :D

A very good example of me and Sara doing something rather ridiculous?

Tomorrow we’ve known each other for four years and I’m sure there’s many years and hopefully decades ahead. Sara will always be the one who does my hair nicely and with whom I'll talk about fashion, the one I’m going to do the most ridiculous things with, the one I can share everything with and by everything, I do mean EVERYTHING (at least she knows what I mean by this). And especially, she will always be my twin sister, we look the same (fucking fabulous!) we are the same (stubborn, difficult to handle, confident). We are so similar it scares me sometimes. The friend like her you can only find once. I’ve found it. I will never let her go.

Like one friend like that wouldn’t make me lucky already? Well I was blessed to have another one who's worth telling.  I met Kisu almost 4 years ago. We're actually really different. For example, we dress rather differently, she puts less make-up on, she’s always been a little “boyish”, when I’m the girliest girl ever. She's the realist. I'm the romantic. I'm the more-silly-one. She's the-calm-down-one. So there's differences, but let me say those differences just make our friendship stronger. Sometimes there's no need for words, we know what the other is thinking. Seriously, sometimes we say the exact thing out loud together, i'ts creepy! She's my over-thinker-friend. When a question just leaps to my mind and keeps me awake at night, I usually text it to to her. She always has an answer, but the question will haunt her the rest of the night haha! ;)

Graduation day! (2011) Blonds looking so smart! Btw Walpurgis Day (30th April -1th May) is the only day of a year that we can wear our lovely white caps! Tomorrow we'll do it for the first time, yesss !

We made it through upper secondary together. Actually surprisingly well, if during our first lessons we were already writing messages to each other about cute guys in our school. Which one you find more interesting, cute guys or history of Christianity? No need to answer! When lost or hit the bottom, we have pulled each other up. If she's not ok, I'm not ok. If she's on cloud nine about something, I'm too! If her heart is broken, mine breaks a little too. It's like I'm living everything she is. Not with her, I mean I'm living what she's living. I feel everything she feels. Two people's thoughts and feelings, hers and mine, in me. I'm sure the majority of people who reads this,  doesn't get it, but she does. We don't see that often, might be even weeks between our get-together, but it doesn't change a thing. She's always there, if I need her. She's my soul sister. We're perfectly on the same wavelength. She understands me in a way that no one can. There's only one of her kind. I must have done something right to deserve her in my life. 

I've found it really hard to describe these two most fabulous women in my life. Words are not enough and I feel like if I post this I haven't said enough. They both are my rock. I could not live without either of them. They can’t be compared as friends. They’re different kind but either way as precious. They're my sisters. The sisters I never had. 

I wanted to write this for them, cause I wanted them to know how much I love them and value every moment, memory and everything they've done for me. For example, when Sara came all the way to England to see me even there would've been more important things to put the money in, or how I broke up with my boyfriend and Kisu drove all the way to my village (it's far enough that the ride feels like a year of famine) just to be with me. I always smile when thinking about the nicknames me and Kisu gave for every cute lad in our high school. (Remember ^^?) or me and Sara's weird jokes like "kilometrikallo!" and "brainmidget". :DD Sorry about the insides my readers, but this post is for my sisters so you're not supposed to get it anyway, haha! How rude of me..sorry. I've done some really important introductions to you my loyal readers (hah there's only a couple of you, and I know you all, so how pathetic of me to speak about you like a huge crowd haha :D Having fun here clearly..) Well anyway, you might find these two ladies in my blog again in future so it's good you to know a little about them. They're a huge part of my life. :)

Do I need to add anything? This is just hillarious! :DD

So tomorrow is Walpurgis Night (Vappu) and I have to put it here how Wikipedia defines it: "In Finland, Walpurgis day (Vappu) is, along with New Year's Eve and Midsummer (Juhannus), the biggest carnival-style festival held in the streets of Finland's towns and cities. The celebration, which begins on the evening of 30 April and continues to 1 May, typically centres on copious consumption of sima, sparkling wine and other alcoholic beverages.! One of my handsome English friends commented this: "Haha it is actually just a holiday for drinking? It's amazing you finns actually need a holiday for that. We call them week days." British humor <3 what can I say? But that is so true, there's nothing specific to celebrate, like at New Year's we celebrate the new year ahead of us. No hang on, maybe we can celebrate that..spring is here YEESS! No? No, Finns are just drinking for fun and we have a holiday for that. I'm not just drinking for fun though, I will celebrate me and Sara's 4th anniversary (how romantic is that! :D), but also I'm going to clink glasses with my sisters to sisterhood! Can't wait! 

Fabulous Walpurgis day everyone!


- lovesme xxx